Thump. Thump. The speakers vibrate as the heavy bass blares throughout the small apartment. Each beat moves Luna, stirs her soul, and stimulates her imagination. Her head slightly bobs and she taps her foot to the steady beat, sometimes even moving her shoulders with each progression, but her mind isn’t on the music, she doesn’t even hear the lyrics she finds herself singing. Her thoughts are on him. They’re always on him, or at least it seems that way to her lately.
“Concentrate, damn it. You’ve got a deadline.”
Luna’s fingers sit idly on the keys as she stares at the empty page on her laptop screen, but she doesn’t even see the white empty space. She can only see flashes of his black eyes, those mysterious, sexy, exotic eyes, staring at her, undressing her, her wolf hungry and filled with a need to devour.
Butterflies flutter inside her, the music takes her deeper and deeper into her day dream. She closes her eyes, leans back in her office chair and with the tips of her fingers she lightly touches her forehead, imaging it’s the soft, warm touch of his beautiful full lips. She moves her middle finger between her brows and down to the tip of her nose and pauses. She can see him clearly now in her mind. His forehead rested upon her own and his dark eyes staring into her own, his warm breath upon her own lips, the tip of his nose pressed against hers. One hand cradles her head, while his strong thick thumb slowly rubs against her jawline. She can feel him peering into her eyes, deeply, beyond her hazel irises and into the very depths of her soul.
“I love you,” her wolf whispers.
Her breath catches. She wants to say those three powerful words back to him, but she can’t breathe. She’s paralyzed, filled with both fear and overwhelming emotion. She’s longed to hear him say those words, but at the same time doesn’t trust them. Too many other wolves have said them to only have never meant them, never even knowing the power of what they meant, and in their blindness walked away beneath the power of the moon. Staring into those black eyes, she knows she loves the spirit behind them, more than any wolf she’s ever loved before, yet she knows that someday he too will walk away. The wildness within him will howl, and he will run, just as all the wolves before him.
Warm tears well in Luna’s eyes as she opens them and stares once more at the empty screen in front of her. She covers her face with hands, props her elbows on the end of the table and lets the cries of pain escape through her lips, a howling cry, a wearisome wail.
Why does she cry? Luna knows she’s wild, and something truly wild cannot ever be caged, cannot ever be tamed, cannot ever be possessed – only equaled by something just as wild, just as strong, just as powerful, and just as free. She is a she-wolf that needs to run and not be caged. Her coat is beautiful, yet delicate. She’s been broken so many times before by violent teeth, iron bars, and messy nets. She is now tattered, torn, and frail, but she can still run, it’s all she knows. Her strength comes from the earth. Her heart comes from the moon. The stars call to her and guides her toward her destiny. The waves sing to her, telling her of the deep things. The wind speaks to her and howls her name. The rain washes the heaviness from her soul. The thunder and lightning energizes her and fills her with strength.
Luna wipes her face, takes a deep breath, and once more sets her fingers to the keys. She knows she’s going to run. Perhaps she knows her wolf won’t run next to her, but she can’t let his choice stop her. The moon is calling her. Her destiny awaits her. She is a she-wolf goddess and her throne waits for her to return. Her scepter is the words she writes. Her crown is her vision and drive. It is a heavy crown and comes with much sacrifice, but she knows nothing great comes without a great cost. She also knows to be part of a pack is the easy way for an ordinary she-wolf, but she’s not ordinary and cannot ever be ordinary.
Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Luna’s fingers fly across the keyboard. With each stroke, her heart beats just a little bit faster. Her hazel eyes widened with excitement. Her gift flows through her, filling her, stirring her, pouring into her at the same time pouring out through her fingertips. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. The heavy beat of the music behind her moves her, pushes her, builds the moment must like the way her wolf makes love to her… building within her an explosive pressure, leading her toward a great release.
The words pour from her like a great river following around bends, navigating through rocks, and then plunging down over great falls. Her imagination runs through the forest of fantasy like the spirit of her she-wolf, her feet barely touching the moss-covered ground, her heart racing as she dodges in and out hidden trails, inhaling the earthy scents of the forest, seeing all the vibrant natural colors. How wonderful would it be if another ran and witnessed the same beauty, but Luna knows only a wild wolf possesses such vision.
Ring. Ring. Luna snaps out of her vision and her fingers rest once more on the keys. She reaches over and pushes the power button on her iPod and silence fills the air that was just pulsating with heavy bass and erotic, tribal percussions. Ring. Ring. Ring.
“Hey, babe,” Luna answers, eyeing the name of her wolf flash across the screen of her phone.
The tone of his voice through the phone tingles her ears, much like the way the drum beats just did a few moments ago through the music and she can’t help but smile. His soul draws her out of her imagination, leaving her wild trails to fade back into the recesses of her mind. Her mind now focuses on him, the memory of his touch, the intoxication of his scent, of the wildness inside him that is an explosive combination when it comes together with her own. His bite is infectious. His growl is erotic.
“What you doing tonight?” Luna’s nipples begin to ache and her breath shallows. Her soul knows it’s a new moon and she wants to howl tonight, to run and hunt with her wild wolf.
“I’ll be waiting for you.” Luna laid her phone down on the desk, glanced at the black font filling the page and smiled. Her wild-woman hazel eyes glowed as she shut the cover of her laptop.