Facing fears is something I know a
little something about. I’ve been doing this my whole life. We all have in some way. Sometimes it seems this is all I do,
because I’m afraid of a lot of things.
But, I refuse to allow my fear to paralyze me.
In the midst of all these changes, I
face a lot of uncertainty. Everything
that used to bring a little security, a little ‘normality’, is gone and I
realize nothing is secure and no one, or no family, is normal. My life …is what I make it. I’m so tired of
trying to live up to everyone else’s expectations, because I can’t. I fail every day. I disappoint someone in some way. The simple truth is …the only person I need
to please - is me.
I used to believe I had to strive to
be the perfect mom, the perfect wife, the perfect Christian, the perfect boss,
the perfect employee, the perfect neighbor, the perfect friend, the perfect
writer, etc. I failed. I’m not perfect
in any of these areas. In fact, I’ve botched
them all, miserably.
I still find myself striving for
perfection, and this effort is where most my fears originate. But, today …today I strive to be happy being
me. I don’t know what tomorrow holds. I
don’t know if I’ll complete all my tasks, fulfill all expectations, or find a
little security, but I face my fears regardless. I have no other option, because the only
other thing to do is give into those fears, and that I can’t do.
What about you? Have you found the courage to face the things
that scare you most? I hope so.
Till next time,
~T.L. Gray
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