You know, they say (though I have no idea who ‘they’ are)
that if I love something or someone, and I pour my love into them, that love
will come back to me. That’s not always
true. Well, at least it’s not true in
the sense that it comes back to me in the way I hope or think. I think if I pour my love into someone
specific or into a certain situation, I will reap the return love from
both. But, that’s where I mess up. Let me try to explain.
When we love someone we tend to think the best thing we can
do is pour our love into them and they will love us back. Too many times I hear the following excuse in
a break up, “But I loved you, I believed in you, I gave you everything.” I know.
I’ve done it. I’ve said those
exact words. Where I messed up was in
the actual pouring out what I had into someone else. In the end… all it left me, was empty.
What I’ve learned is that I need to let the raw love I have
for myself trickle into me, begin to fill me, let it build and then let it run
over my banks and cascade out of me like a waterfall. Those who stand under it or around me will be
affected … but I don’t need them to fill my banks. That’s for me to do.
In my trial and errors, failures and mistakes, I’ve learned
a valuable lesson: I poured myself out to the wrong person. What I should have done was allow
myself to pour into me, and from the overflow provide a beautiful
waterfall of love for everyone else.
I don’t need to be loved.
I want to be loved, adored, wanted and desired - everyone does. But, I’m beginning to see what I need most
is for people to enjoy the love I have for and in me. They will love me, because I love me.
I have some really great friends in my life, and the reason
I love them is because I see something in them that is beautiful. I once told someone they were beautiful and I
wasn’t talking about the color of their eyes or even the way they made me
feel. They were beautiful to me because I
saw them loving themselves, enjoying what made them happy, and encouraging me
to do the same by being who they were, not who I wanted them to be. I
sometimes saw that beauty so strong I couldn't help but become overwhelmed. I bathed in their waterfall.
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